Vulnerable: A Struggle to Show Up Authentically

I’ve always felt that one of my missions with this blog is sharing my vulnerability with the world. Expressing myself freely, emotions and all. There have been times in my life where my emotions were dampened, used against me or were simply “too much.” As I’ve grown into my own and become more in tune with myself, I’ve come to realize what a gift it is to feel so deeply and be willing to share those emotions freely with others. In turn encouraging others to do the same.

But lately I’ve struggled (the past 8 months to be exact) knowing what is “too vulnerable” or “too personal” to share. My brain at odds with my heart. There has been so much turmoil and heartache and joy and anxiety this year- it’s just seemed impossible to know what to write about and what to hold close to me. So I shared small bits at a time, always looking to others to see if it was once again “too much” or “too vulnerable.” And then I stopped sharing all together. I stopped expressing myself in the ways I love.

When I started the blog I was in love and hopeful and filled with excitement for the future. Along the way things morphed. Life changed. There is still so much love and joy and yet so much pain and confusion and feelings of loss. Quite honestly I don’t feel like writing about the pain, not yet anyway, and I feel like a sham for only focusing on the positives. I feel like shutting myself in and hiding once again - and that is precisely why I am posting this.

If you get nothing else from this post or this blog let it be this: Continually show up as your authentic self. Continually share pieces of yourself with the world. Even when you think “why does it matter” - in fact share even more then, because it does matter. You matter and your vulnerability is not a weakness it is the biggest strength.

I’ll be wrapping up my Changes series in the upcoming month, talking about the process of starting your own business, coffee review update and so much more so keep your eyes wide open. Did this resonate with you? Are you also going through some pretty heavy changes? Let’s connect 💛

“There can be no life without change, and to be afraid of what is different or unfamiliar is to be afraid of life.” ―Theodore Roosevelt